If you take a step back and observe all those around you, there is this common factor of constantly searching
It’s like we can’t know what it is like to be happily alone
It’s uncommon to see someone content not being emotionally involved
The way you dress, how you smell, what you do…. Is it all for you?
I see this even in myself and for the past month I’ve stepped back and realized this is the time for me to focus on me
I haven’t been dating someone since thirteen but I have always been emotionally involved or dating someone.
Have I ever just enjoyed being young?
Why do we feel the need to be single but then go out and find someone else?
In this moment I need to get my shit together, and I’m getting my shit together and having someone else around might just be my downfall
How do you care for someone else when you are still putting together the pieces in your life?
I may be afraid of commitment but I am a lover and that for me has caused endless pain and suffering even when I’m not in love
I may only be nineteen but it’s time for me to not just make mistakes but to actually learn from them. To make something out of myself, to smile on my own accord
This is the time in my life that I need to be single
I’m not looking for anything but the truth about my abilities because I’ve been caught up in disappointment after disappointment for six years now and I need some time off
Sanity is important and I want to find out what that is
One day I’ll return to the “norm” but until then I’ll smile because I’m truly happy by myself
I won’t need a meaningful comment, a kiss, or anything else for that matter to be happy
I’m not saying what others do is wrong, I’m simply stating that I know what I need right now in my life.
I’m completely single, and I’m content